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creative edge
only sometimes do i ever really get the inspiration to be creative and edit.
it's a burden, really.
i remember when i got my first taste of photoshop. i met this guy, kameron and he was (or still is) fantastic at editing. he'd edit anything and everything and creative objects of art. he was fantastic at everything he did in photoshop. he inspired me to go out there, steal permanently borrow photoshop.
and i remember for the first straight month i had it, all i did was play around and 'get my feet wet' persay. then i lost interest. i stopped using it and stopped having that creative urge. i get the urge only sometimes when i'm home alone and have nothing else better to do.
same goes for layout making.
and i really HATE when i get this feeling because if i don't accomplish something, it never goes away.
so here i go, going to edit anything and everything i can because if nothing comes out of it, i'm stuck with this feeling. -
new years
i've been asked literally every year what my new years' resolution is...and every year i have NO answer. i mean, i make up random ones just to partake in the general conversation but in all actuality i NEVER have one. i wish it was more like a new years' wish. personally, i would love to go back in time and fix a few broken friendships here and there. -
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Do you have any feelings for anyone right now?
jonathan patrick adams, my boyfriend
Would you ever tattoo a boy's/ girl' s name on you?
unless that name said gma, then no thanks
How old is the last person you kissed?
twentysomething
What was the last thing you laughed at really hard?
uh, probs something about myself
Why are oranges called navels?
not all of them are...just the ones with the silly holes on them
One thing you did today you shouldn't have done?
oh idk gotten sick maybe
Which is worse getting your blood drawn or getting a shot?
getting blood drawn...creeps me out
Why did you cry the last time you did?
uh, i didnt necessarily CRY i just teared up...it was because boston was an ass
What's bothering you right now?
nothing really except i'm in one of those creative moods but i can't think of anything to do
Did you wake up happy today?
no way! i woke up early and cranky
Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
duh it's not that hard
Name two people that annoy you:
everybody is annoying at one point
What were you doing at 10am today?
at the ccity meeting
Any plans for this weekend?
weekend is over...this coming weekend probably working and football like every other weekend
Do you know the last person you were in a car with other than family?
yep
Is there a night you would like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
oh yes
Is there someone you'd like to fix things with?
:( yes but she's long gone...r.i.p chelsea
What kind of mood are you in?
sleepy and sickly
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
i have before...twice. working on a third
Ditched school to do something more fun?
haha the one time i did, sucked balls
Will you be in a relationship in four months?
hopefully
What was the last thing you bought today?
sonic
Do you know your father's Bday?
yep
What are you listening to?
60 mins
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
i do right now
Who was the last person to text you?
boston
Do you ever turn off your cellphone?
sometimes
Do you say sorry first?
always no matter if it was my fault or not
What are you doing tomorrow?
sleeping
Were you up at 11pm last night?
yeah
What were you doing?
idk
Where did you last sleep other than your house?
boston's probs
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
[teared up] boston
Are you a forgiving person?
sometimes too
When was the last time you saw your dad?
ummm a few ago
Are you mad about anything?
nope
Do you think you are a good person?
i know i am
What are you wearing tomorrow?
jeans, white tee, hoodie...eggzactly what i'm wearing now
When is the last time you talked to your grandma?
:( when i was 13...r.i.p gma
How many months until your birthday?
2 months
Do you drink soda?
too much
What was the last thing you said aloud?
"honestly kitten, honestly!?"
Tell us something about your ex?
i luff him? :)
The way to win your heart?
being a freakin nerd
Do you like things in life to stay how they are or change?
i need a car
What do you do when you're stressed out?
cry...panic attacks...agh i'm so emotionally challenged
Can you sleep in jeans?
love to sleep in jeans...so comfy -
001
so, i decided once again to try and keep up with a journal. only because somehow, i have to write down all that built up stress because i'm tired of piling it on someone else.
lately, i've been listening to chopped/screwed music. i don't know why, just something about it...totally addicting. i don't even know half the people it's by, haha. i just search "chopped" or "screwed" in the myspace music search box, and pick a song from the list. right now, it's "body bags" by dj chopped. haha, whatevaaa.
so, i have 19 more days until i leave for las vegas with jfig. i, for one, am extremely nervous. i absolutely HATE flying. boston isn't helping too much by putting it off. he shouldn't be putting it off...i mean he's the one who has to take me that morning. what really sucks about this flight...i have to leave las vegas at 1AM and i'll be back home at 5AM. which basically means i will have to take a taxi home. sucks. or have my dad on his way to work drop me off at boston's. then, i'll only get around 3 hours of sleep until i have to go to work with him because i will be working the late shift that night. unless i talk to john tomorrow and have him work me early, that way i can get home that afternoon and pass out. whoo.
i'm super sad about seeing b-ray again, only because i'll have to say goodbye to him. he is probably the easiest person to talk to, aside from garrett. i hope camills, rain, r-man, and him all place super high in the comp. they have a lot of weight on their shoulders after mike and uzzi dropping out because they didn't want to go. i'm excited to see r-man though. that kid cracks me up everytime i talk to him. :) rmac&jmac haha.
and r.i.p green bay's chance at doing anything good this year. way to suck it up fuckers.
goodnight :)
